Living a lie

Life is an illusion based upon the mind
If I say I am guilty
Then I am

If my mind dictates my self esteem

And decides my inferiority

Then that is what I will surely be

Life is an illusion created by me

I looked into the mirrors and saw nothing I could be

You said I was stupid

Incompetent

Fool

I saw it

I lived it

Though it was not true

My illusions got stronger, as I lost my way

I stumbled around in a drunken daze

I am a brilliant, creative, artistic flow

Only problem is

I

Don’t know

Reality is shattered

My illusions are strong

I am living in a place I do not belong

My mind began searching, this reality

Is this the truth?

Or created by me?

What is the evidence of who I am?

Why did I believe you?

Why I went along?

I’m shattered

I'm ruined

Life never began

All because I listened to your cruel song

I based my illusions on what you had said

Created this reality all in my head

How can I blame you?

I built it myself

I walked it

I lived it

Faced the fires of hell

Who can assist me?

No one here can

I started this journey, although it was wrong

It is now time to face me

And all I have become

I am preparing for a journey

To where it began

This time my lips will sing my very own songs

I will change this illusion

I will be careful this time

AND understand that reality

Begins in my mind

© 2008 kulcha Imigiz